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Dating Diary 1988 part2

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wasn’t ready for a serious relationship. It hurt a little (liar,
it hurt a lot) but I wouldn’t let him know. I laughed it off and
said “did I look like I was ready for marriage?” oh, yes, back
to the field; we made it back through the woods when I asked him
why he turned me down. He told me he wanted to but he respected
me too much. (I definitely made it hard for him when I dared
him!)
When we got back I asked him if we could go to this
grandparents, but he said now.
This really hurt me too, but again, I didn’t say anything. So we
were up in his room looking over car magazines. I asked him what
homework he had. He checked and said he didn’t have any so I
stayed an extra hour. I ate dinner there. Before Christ warned
me they said grace which was good (that he told me I mean)
After dinner, we were up in his room, I was lying on his bed and
we were kissing for about ¾ of an hour. I sure hope he didn’t
catch my cold.
That was all except that he liked the bracelet I made him.
p.s. I won’t promise to write in this every day because I’m not
in the habit of making promises I can’t keep.
Dear Diary, 10/21/88
Boy did today suck! I forgot to read Tale of Two Cities so I
failed the quiz (I think) then I retook the french test—bomb!
Algebra test I know I got a 0 out of 30. To top that off, Mom
told me when I got home that Linc and Arlene know about Chris
and me! Chris’s going to have a shit fit. Then she told me that
Linc was going to get on my case for forgetting to turn the
mists back on! Today is my DAY! I’ll finish later after Chris
calls. But first I want to copy this poem I found on a postcard
in Sackett’s:
Only as high
As I reach can I grow
Only as far
As I seek can I go
Only as deep as I look can I see
Only as much
As I dream can I be- Karen Ravin

Later-
Damn! Today is rally my day. I think Chris caught my cold, but
either way he is sick, so I can’t talk to him. I hope he’ll be
okay cuz I know I hate being sick. Sunday is supposed to be
rainy so we probably can’t go to the cliffs even if he was okay.
If he goes to work tomorrow I’ll ask. The only bad thing is
that I can’t warn him that Linc knows. Life is a Bitch! If he
calls back I’ll write more, if not, well bye

Chris didn’t call, but I remembered something I wanted to write,
Mom told me something about Arlene. Arlene was married to John
it seems and they had gotten divorced. After a period of time,
john came back and Arlene took him. They’ve been living together
since (3 years) every year he leaves her though. Sounds like a
soap opera, huh? Well. Later.
Dear Diary, 10/22/88
Life sucks!
Chris didn’t come to work today. Lianne told me this poem that I
like
I may not always tell you
Exactly how I feel; but the love I have for you
Will always be real.
You mean so much to me-
More than you will know;
And I will always love you
Wherever you may go
So when your days are really rough
And you don’t know what to do
Remember these words I am saying now
I will always care for you.
I’m upset (right) I’m miserable and I’m depressed . Help! I miss
Chris, I’m sorry he’s sick, I’m bored (naw, me, bored? must have
me mixed up with someone else.) I’m miserable because I know
Chris doesn’t care for me the way I care for him, and I’m afraid
he’ll get tired of me and break up with me. I’m afraid I’ll fail
my classes, that I’ll fail at everything (including life)
It hurts me that mike doesn’t care as much as I do, I mean it
hurts a lot.
You know what diary? My life sucks.
I nearly lost my job today. Chris was sick, I’m not doing
anything this weekend. This morning I weighed myself…89 pounds!
I lost 5 lbs, gross! I weighed myself again around 4…92! I’ve
…End of the part2. To be continued..