Archive for January, 2009

Goodbye Again

Saturday, January 31st, 2009

By Dryad

Miriam turned the key as she jostled shopping bags in her arms. She dropped everything
on the table and checked her blinking answering machine. She heard the traffic drone
behind his cultured voice:

“Hi Meri—sorry I missed you. I’ll try to make time to see
you after this trip– you know how it is. Don’t call my
cell—the wife has it for the weekend. I’ll try and call when
I get back. Love you.”

Her cat meowed and wound between Meri’s ankles. Miriam picked her up and brushed
her face into the cat’s fur.

“It’s just you and me again this weekend, Moxie.” She put the cat down and reached for
the groceries, quietly putting them away.

The weekend dragged. She watched TV, did some needlepoint. In the wee hours of the
morning, sleep still eluding her, she pulled out a worn and tattered deck of playing cards. She sat Indian style in bed, laying the cards out in the familiar pattern. She knew it was cliché—woman alone, playing solitaire, but it was better than thinking about why her bedside companion was a cat, instead of a man.

He swore it would be different. His children were grown; he could leave anytime.

By Monday she was in a rage. She was a fool, having wasted all this time on a man who
wouldn’t choose. In a fit of anger, she threw the rose vase he had sent once. The sound of the shattering glass released something inside her. Her eyes darted, searching for more breakables. She spied the lamp and slammed her fist into it. She crumpled to the floor as tears of pain and despair streamed down her lined cheek. The cat rubbed against her bloody hand.

Then the phone rang. She reached for it.

Gone MF rom

Friday, January 30th, 2009

By Dryad

_She was gone._

He shook his head — all their years together — a tear slowly wended its way down his
cheek, as he began to pack her things.

The blue dress she wore to their daughter Denise’s wedding. He remembered how happy
she was, how she felt in his arms as they danced around the room. The material was soft,
clingy, sensual; like her. It floated around them, reminding him of their own wedding
day, when her veil floated around them as he swept her in his arms. He sighed softly,
inhaling her lingering scent.

Maybe this was a bad idea. It was too soon, too raw a wound to clean out now. He
didn’t want to lose what he had left of her. He closed the half filled box and headed out
the door.

He found himself walking. Not quite aimlessly, but meandering nonetheless. He ended
up in the city park, a grand old place. He walked the avenue of ancient oaks that soared
above him in an arch. The squirrels tittered at his feet, playing some sort of squirrel
soccer with a nut. He smiled slightly, remembering how she would always throw them
the saltines she invariably kept in her oversized purse.

They met in this park, near the large central fountain. It was right after the war. He had
come home, feeling lucky but feeling so very tired. She made him want to celebrate, to
_Live_. Her dark sparkling eyes, always so full of fun. She used to chase him around the
fountain until he reversed gears and would catch her. She would rock in his arms,
slightly out of breath, her breasts against his chest, as she tiptoed up to sneak a kiss.

It was as he was wandering that he bumped into her; Sandy, Denise’s best friend.

“Mr. Allard, I’m so sorry. I heard. It was so sudden. She was too young. I’ll miss her”
She said empathetically, her hand on his arm. He was unsure whether it helped or made
him angry.

“Thank you,” he said forcing a slight smile. “It was quick; she didn’t suffer much.” _Kid,
what did she know?_ She fell into step with him.

“This place,” he shook his head, “it was so special. Did you know, Laura and I met here?
I proposed to her, at the fountain.” He chuckled slightly. “I was never so scared. I shook
so bad, I actually dropped the ring in the fountain.” Sandy smiled at him. “I could see
you doing that. I bet Mrs. Allard just laughed.”

He nodded, smiling in memory, “We both jumped in, running our hands around looking
for it. She was so wet….” His voice trailed off, realizing to whom he was speaking.

Sandy reached out for his hand, squeezing it. “It’s okay. It’s important to remember her
that way. I’m not exactly the little kid you remember,” she pointed out softly.

And to his chagrin he noticed her obvious warmth and personality. A body young enough
to remember its soft curves but old enough to understand them. _She had to be what?_ He
thought to himself idly, _29? Yes, must be since Denise was._ With dusk quickly
approaching, it had begun to rain softly and he observed her nipples harden as the cold
water soaked her thin peasant blouse before shaking himself out of his reverie.

Sandy smiled at him, softly, empathetically. She took the hand she held in hers, and
placed it over her breast. “It’s okay.” She murmured softly. His fingers trembled, first to
pull back, then to rest over her breast. _So soft._ He shivered in memory, remembering
when Laura had given him her virginity. A very private moment, one he didn’t list when
he explained why the park was so special. Laura felt so soft under his hands, his fingers
pleading as his mouth couldn’t do. And she gave, God, did she give.

They ran through the rain, ran into the hemlock stand. The thick branches gave them
cover from peering eyes and the falling rain. He leaned low and kissed her softly, putting
all his boiling emotion into it. His hand caressed her face, memorizing each detail, the
soft slope of her jaw, the curve of her neck.

She leaned into the kiss, pressing her firm breasts into him, her arms wrapped around his
neck, open and giving. She showed him with her body, reminded him he was alive. Her
leg went up to link into his. Their lips parted, their noses touching when suddenly they
lost their balance and she landed on top of him. They laughed out loud, and she rubbed
his bottom, making the minor pain glow into something more substantial. They rolled in
the soft loamy dirt and dried needles that made their temporary bed as satiny as expensive
sheets. They smelled the damp spring rain, as their heavy breaths curled over their heads.

He pressed into her, kissing her, but suddenly shy. _What next? Should I? Can I?_ So
tender of her, even now adoring her. Her hands told him though, pressing his shoulders so
his lips were within reach of her chest. His lips covered a chilled nipple through her thin
shirt, warming it with his tongue. Emboldened by her shifting sighs, he laved the
opposite one with the same attention. Her body writhed beneath his, her hips pressing up
to meet his.

“Please.”

It was only a whisper. He heard it though, rejoiced in it. She would be his. He continued
to trail down her soft stomach. Her skirt was bunched up, and he could see her exposed
thighs. He gently knelt between her legs, kissing the inside of her thighs. Her hands
reached for his hair, pulling him closer. He nuzzled at her core, feeling the dampness on
her panties that had nothing to do with the rain. Her hands reached down to help him,
peeling them downward, down with her stockings. He sighed at the sight of her. The
scent of aroused woman, spring rain and hemlock would always make him remember.

He flicked his tongue on the outer ridges, enjoying her moans and squirms. He breathed
in her scent before nuzzling her core. Her body silently shuddered in response, and he felt
her lips spasm quickly. So silent, so different from the girls he’d met in Europe. They
had to announce to the world. Her orgasm was silent, just for him. His tongue fluttered
over her clitoris, lengthening her joy, until she whimpered low and he felt her pull upon
him, pulling him down.

He knelt up, trembling, wanting everything to be right for her. He pressed his head
against her opening, rubbing it softly against her wetness, before pressing slowly into her.

His body was shaking with the amount of concentration to retain his control. Slowly he
pressed into her warmth. Never had it felt like this. So warm, so tight. He pressed in
fully, before sliding back out just as slowly. Her moan of desire stirred him, and he
pressed back in. Slowly he built up the tempo, until he got lost in her, lost all control.
And then with her soft sighs, he too had his release.

As he came down, he opened his eyes. Sandy was beneath him, smiling softly. He was
stunned, even a bit embarrassed. It seemed so real, but it wasn’t Laura. _Laura…my
Laura…She’s gone. _

He collapsed onto her waiting, soft body, and wept, Sandy’s arms wrapped around him.
**************************

To be followed shortly by a mirror story, “Return” from Sandy’s point of view.

Copyright Dryad 2002 (gbbjg@yahoo.com) http://www.asstr.org/~Dryad

She was early part2

Thursday, January 29th, 2009

“Ouch. That had to hurt.” Ella remarked.

“Stick a fork in ‘em he’s done,” was Deni’s. “When was that?”

“We went for a weekend to the shore.”

“Ooooh. We just went there! We left the kids with Josh’s mom for the weekend.” Ella smiled dreamily. “We had such a nice time…a romantic walk on the beach…and afterward…I haven’t had an orgasm like that in ages!” She blushed, then asked, “Did you have a good time?”

“Too many people. After he got the burn, we ended up coming home. No sense in staying if he had to stay inside all the time.”

“God, they’re getting old.” Deni whined.

“We all are. But, there are bonuses to being older.” Ella fiddled with her glass.

“God, what?”

“We don’t have a problem going after what we want.”

“Damn right!” Deni scanned the bar for likely suspects as she grinned.

“The stud at the next table – damn right – I need a good screwing.” Betsy commented as she raised her glass.

“Don’t we all?” Deni quipped. ” I mean, what is it with men? I could get just about any male in here. Flash a little tit, a little thigh and they’re drooling like mental patients. Marry them, and you need to drag them kicking and screaming to bed.” She paused to swig the rest of her tequila. “It’s been three weeks since I’ve had any. And then? I literally was on my knees in front of him begging. Hell, when it comes to sex, I have no pride.” She raised her hand to signal the waitress for another round.

“My problem is wham bam thank you ma’am and too bad you didn’t get a chance sweetie – I’ll try harder next time – but he never does.” Betsy answered.

“Exactly. But with a stranger? Hell, fireworks, and excitement and everything sex should be. You know what it is girls?”

They both watched Deni for her answer.

“They take us for granted. They don’t have to work to please us anymore, they already HAVE us.” The waitress put the tray down as she handed out the drinks, grinning at the women and silently nodding her head.

“Well, DUH. Tell me something I didn’t figure out after the first two years of marriage.” Ella nearly choked on her drink laughing.

“So why do we put up with it? If a stranger would treat us better, why do we put up with it?” Betsy asked.

“Because we don’t want to be alone?” Deni replied.

“Aren’t we little miss cynical!” Ella exclaimed. “You know why as well as I do. We love them. God only knows why, they certainly drive us insane, but there it is.” She took another swig of her drink. “Topic change; when was the last time your husband did something sexually surprising for you? Could be romantic or whatever.”

Betsy spoke first, “Ummm Lets restate the question. When did they EVER do something to surprise us?”

“Ethan used to bring me cards home. Used to bring me flowers for no reason. Last year after a really and I mean REALLY bad fight…he arranged for mom to take the girls while we went to a really fancy restaurant. One where we could actually hear each other, and had tablecloths.” Deni said.

“Denise Louise Richards. I said sexually surprising, I already said mine.” Ella nudged her.

“Fine. At least he’s willing to do something more than missionary. Doesn’t like anal, but he’ll play around a few times a year since he knows I do.” Deni thought for a moment. “Last year he shaved me! That counts, doesn’t it?” She grinned.

“You like anal? My husband would kill to try that out…nope, no way. Not in this lifetime.” Ella retorted.

Betsy moaned. “This is almost more than I needed to know.”

“Fine then, what does Daren do to get your motor going?” Ella answered.

Betsy laughed. “Does baking me chocolate chip cookies count?”

“Well, lets see, chocolate, sex. Chocolate. Sex.” Ella held her hands face up as though weighing the subjects. ” Close enough I guess.” She paused, “Actually, I think chocolate may be better.”

“Bite your tongue! Better than sex?” Deni said.

“Fine then. Better than bad sex. And before you start, YES there is such a thing.”

“Well, duh,” she replied, mimicking Ella, “of course there is. That’s what we’re complaining about, isn’t it? Well, quality AND quantity. What’s the longest you’ve been without?”

“Honestly?” Ella answered.

“No, lie to me,” Deni said, exasperated, “Of course honestly.”

” 20 months, 2 weeks and 3 days.”

“I think she meant since you’ve been married.” Betsy said.

“That WAS when I was married.” Ella countered.

“Ouch! And I complain about 3 months. Jesus. How did you live through it?”

“Thank god for Rechargeables and cyber is all I’ve got to say.” Ella shook her head and took a big gulp of her drink. The question ‘Why?’ hung in the air, but no one wanted to ask.

“Have you ever considered women?” Ella broke the silence.

“You mean become bisexual? What woman hasn’t?” Deni joked, then seeing the looking on Ella’s face, “You’re serious?”

Betsy answered quietly, “I’ve thought about it. I mean, hell, men aren’t doing it for me.”

“I’ve thought about it a lot. A Lot.” The women waited for her to continue. “I’ve been sorta seeing this woman online.”

“REALLY? What does Josh have to say about that? Does he even know?” Betsy asked incredulously.

“He knows. Not happy, really, but surprisingly, he’s pretty understanding about it. But I think he thinks it’s some sort of stage I’m going through.” She paused a moment, “or he thinks he can get a ménage going on.”

“Deni,” Betsy suddenly hissed, “there’s some guy staring at you.”

“Really? Where? Is he cute?” She grinned then turned around.

“Jesus, girl where were you in Clubbing 101? You don’t turn and LOOK!”

The guy was good looking. Tall, with a sexy smile that lit up his eyes. Older too, not some college brat. He raised his glass in her direction when he caught her eye. She smiled at him, and he started to walk toward their booth.

He stopped at the booth and looked down at the women, or more specifically, at Deni.

“Hi.”

It wasn’t much, but that one syllable melted over her body like rich, warm chocolate. Betsy and Ella gave her an imperceptible head nudge.

“Hi.” She managed back.

“Would you like to dance?” he held his hand out to her.

She began to stutter her apology when Ella answered for her, “Oh, go on Deni! Just remember what we had the conversation about.” She grinned at her friend as she was led out on the dance floor.

“Do you come here often?” He asked her.

“No, just once a year. You?”

“Just passing through. I like the scenery.” He smiled down at her again, revealing an adorable dimple on his right cheek. She flustered as they continued to dance on the miniscule dance floor, until she caught the eyes of her girlfriends who were egging her on. Ella’s words came back to her, and she replayed the conversation in her head as his hand softly caressed her back. She followed Ella’s advice, remembering the words she’d spoken earlier. “But with a stranger? Hell, fireworks, and excitement and everything sex should be.” Guess she was saying follow my own advice. Her body closed the gap he’d allowed, and felt her breasts brush against his chest. A quiet intake of breath was her acknowledgement. His hands continued to wander her back, up and down slowly and seductively. Each pass brought his hands lower and lower until his palms were resting over the curves of her ass, and his fingers squeezing her pelvis closer to him, feeling his own reaction against her stomach. She gasped. Maybe this is too much she thought, looking over his shoulder to her friends.

Who were no longer at the table. She could see the bills fluttering beneath the empty glasses, her own purse and bag missing. Damn them!

The song ended, and she stepped away. “I’m sorry…but my friends just left, and they have my purse. I need to go hunt them down…but it was lovely meeting you.” Deni smiled, as she stepped away.

Quickly, he fell into step with her. “That wasn’t a nice thing to do! Let me help you find them. At least this way, you have someone to help you with a plan B.”

She nodded and smiled, “Thanks. I might just have to take you up on that.” She wandered up to the bank of elevators, and pressed the floor she knew Betsy was staying on. He followed her into the elevator, rubbing her tense shoulders. “My room and car keys were in my purse…they know I can’t get home without them. What made them think this would be amusing?” she ranted idly, even while her body’s nervous system was going on overload at his touch. The elevator stopped on the floor, and she walked up to the door. It was slightly open, so she pushed it in.

“Okay guys! This isn’t funny!” The empty room echoed as she wondered where they could be.

Her purse was sitting on the closest bed with her keycard and she sighed heavily in relief, as she heard the door click shut behind her. She heard him come up behind her, and knew what was coming. She tossed the momentary qualms aside and turned into his embrace. His hold was strong, sure and sensual, as his lips kissed first her eyelids, her nose, her cheek, her jaw, before settling over her mouth.

His tongue teased her, drawing a moan from her, as his arms tightened around her suddenly slack body. Her hands drew up to play with the hair curling at the collar of his shirt. His lips left hers and skimmed down her neck to the hollow of her throat, kissing softly and making her shiver in his embrace. The buttons quickly fell open as he skimmed lower. His touch was electric. She moaned softly as his fingers tightened against her back, her hands running down to his broad shoulders. She fell back onto the bed, as he pulled off his shirt, returning to her quickly. She could feel the heat of his chest burn through the satin of her bra. It teased her already turgid nipples. Quickly, she reached behind to unclasp the bra, desperate for the feel of his hot skin against hers. The cold of his belt buckle hit her stomach and caused her to shiver again. She reached down to undo it, feeling his thickness press against her thigh as she did so. Her own skirt had magically disappeared. She lay nude beneath him, his touch causing frissions of tension to course through her body as his slacks slide down to puddle on the floor. With a moan, he fell forward on top of her, his hands running down her sides.

Slowly, he slid down her body, softly worshipping her body with his mouth as he moved until he was kneeling between her thighs. His dark smiling eyes caught her lust hazed ones before dipping into her femininity. Once, twice his tongue slid widely over her slit, dragging across her already engorged clitoris. Her breathing caught, and he felt her thighs vibrate against his cheeks. Three times, and she shrieked loudly, her inner lips fluttering spasmodically against his tongue. He pressed his tongue against her quivering flesh, and held still until the spasms passed. He rose to his knees, pressing his shaft against her humid core, and gradually slid inside. He groaned, pressing up against her pelvic bone. His hands pulled her hips against his own, her clitoris stimulated by the contact and she bucked against him. He slid and out of her relentlessly, a steady rhythm, not too fast or too slow. They both panted, moaning, otherwise silent. Her body arched as he brought her closer and closer to the brink, each breath becoming more ragged. In a sudden blaze, Deni shrieked as her body began to convulse about the bed, in the throes on a massive orgasm. And still, he kept pounding away like a metronome. His breathing was coming in hisses now, and his constant rhythm began to break down, as he roared his own completion. He fell against her, his head against her breast, while they both caught their breath.

“Wow,” she breathed.

“Wow is right,” he answered as he slowly stood up, “that was wild.”

“Mmmmhmmm,” she agreed still in post orgasmic bliss.

“I need to work in the morning, so I better get going.” He zipped up his pants.

“Okay sweetheart, I’ll see you when you get home from work.” She stood up and slid her naked body against him.

“Thanks for fulfilling my fantasy…Yours is next.” She murmured against his cheek as she let him out the door.

Ella and Betsy were never going to believe it.

She was early

Wednesday, January 28th, 2009

She found a decent table, hidden back in an alcove. She sat at the edge of the seat, watching the door.

It was the annual “Hen Roost” as her husband liked to call it. Her and her two good friends would go out for the night, drinking, carousing, and male bashing. Of course, it was easy to do when he used terms like that.

She ordered a coke to start with, wanting to be sharp for the beginning festivities. Betsy was the first one in. It figured, since she was closer, and not having any kids, she’d find it easier to escape.

“Betsy! Over here!” she called out.

“Deni!” Betsy rushed over and threw her arms around her friend, then proceeded to drop a large shopping bag and her coat to her seat.

“Holy shit, Den! How much weight did you lose?” Deni did a little pirouette.

“You like? Twenty five pounds; yoga, and power walking,” she replied as they both slid into the booth.

“So, where’s Ella?” Betsy flagged down a waitress.

“I imagine she’ll be here shortly. Her kids go to bed later than mine…and she has a lot further to travel. You spending the night here like last year?”

“Hell, yeah. Too fricken far to travel back tonight. Too bad you can’t stay. Ella said she probably will.”

“Actually, I am. Ethan arranged it!” Deni grinned.

“Woohoo! Oh! There’s Ella.” Betsy cried out. “Hey Ella!” Deni laughed at how half the bar looked over at them. Ella laughed too through her blush.

“I can’t believe you did that!” She dumped her belongings down and looked at her two friends. “So…What’d I miss?” She plopped down into the booth next to Betsy as the waitress came by.

“Hi ladies. Will you be starting a tab tonight?”

The women chuckled. “Oh, yeah. Lots of talking tonight!”

“Great then. What will we start with?”

“Husband bashing for the first course?” Deni grinned.

“Oooh. I’m up for some of that!” the waitress replied, “but I have to take your drink orders.”

“I’ll have a mudslide please,” Betsy chimed in.

“Sombero please…and the more Kahlua the better.” Was Ella’s addition.

“I swear, I’m gonna call you girls the Kahlua sisters. I’d like a Tequila Sunrise please?” Deni finished as the waitress smiled and left with their order.

“Let’s go through the pictures first, before we’re too sloshed to recognize who’s who.” Deni said while she pulled her bag up to the table, digging for her collection.

“Good idea. I didn’t bring many this year. You always bring enough for the two of us.” Betsy nudged Deni.

Ella sighed as she pulled hers out. “The girls got into the pictures just before I left…so they aren’t all here…” she shuffled through, “Here is Molly’s school pictures.” She smiled.

“Pig tails, Ella? God, that’s old-fashioned! Oh wait.” Deni chuckled, “Look at Lizzie’s school picture.”

They all laughed when they saw Lizzie had braided pigtails as well. “Probably the only time I did that all year too.”

“Oh, aren’t they darling!” Betsy commented.

Ella snorted. Deni shuffled through the pictures. “Really? Take a look at this one.”

Betsy gasped when she saw the same “darling” covered with… “What IS that?”

Deni laughed. “Oh, they decided to get into the cubby where I store all the holiday stuff? That was Easter egg dye. They thought they’d use it like makeup. You should have seen the floor when I found them.” She shook her head, “it took me ages, and there are still green stains on the floor.”

“THAT is why I don’t have children. Well, that and I can’t. But it’s why we never adopted. I have enough trouble cleaning up after the dogs.” She handed the picture to Ella.

She laughed, “I recognize that. Only mine was Christy getting into my makeup.”

Pulling another picture from the pile, Betsy asked, “Was this your vacation?”

Deni nodded. ” If you can call a weekend a vacation, yes. But it was nice. The weather was gorgeous. Couldn’t've asked for better.”

The waitress showed up with the drinks, taking a moment to laugh at Lizzie covered with egg dye. “Just holler when you need more, it looks like a long night!” She grinned as she moved away.

“Now for the proof of point pictures, ladies.” Ella flipped one on top of the pile. “Remember how I said the house looked? And neither of you would believe how bad it was?”

Betsy gulped and Deni laughed. “Looks like the girls’ rooms after a long, rainy weekend.”

“So, Bets, where’re your pictures?”

“Don’t have many…just one of the dogs, one of the new garden, and one of Daren when he got sunburned.” She shuffled through the pile and pulled out the pictures she mentioned.

…End of the part1. To be continued..

Get Out

Tuesday, January 27th, 2009

By Dryad

“Get out.” She was prim and quiet as she met him at the door.

“Baby, what’s going on?” he stepped toward her, but she flinched away.

“Kelly.”

The word dropped like a stone in his gut. He knew she somehow found out. He dropped his hand to his side, then brought it back up to run through his thinning hair. He looked at her. Even now she appeared to be calm. He could see through it though, see how tightly she gripped the cloth of her skirt, the white of her knuckles, the tension lines around her mouth. Her back was straight, her eyes downcast. He reached out for her again, realizing his silence had just proved his guilt.

“Sweetheart…” he stopped abruptly–he didn’t know what to say.

“Get out,” she whispered again.

He looked at her beautiful long brown hair, reached to stroke it, to touch her soft skin, anything to ease the tension he created within her. He let his hand slowly drop back down when he saw her silent tears.

“I love you.” He answered just as quietly. He turned away and shut the door.

Fishtank nosex

Monday, January 26th, 2009

By Dryad

This is a work of fantasy. It is not about real people, and if
it is, it´s not what they would do. (not that you are
likely to
know them anyway). If you are under 18, go away, since I don’t
like to get in trouble. If you are turned off by perversion,
what are
you doing at ASSTR? In other words, go away. If none of this
applies to
you, great! Read on! Have fun!Let me know what you like!

Oh, and I work hard on my writing…so guess what? It’s mine.
That’s right boys and girls…it’s copyrighted…so if you want
it? Just ask…we’ll talk.
**********************************************************

She stepped into the living room dropping her keys on the
table. She rolled her neck, working on getting out the strain.
She tensed when she saw it.

Her bookshelves were gone. In their place was the large 50
gallon fish tank that they stored years earlier because of its
unwieldy size. The lights were glaring against the stone strewn
bottom and a new filter system was thrumming noisily. It was
obviously just waiting for the addition of fish.

She heaved a deep sigh.

“What’s with you?” he remarked sarcastically.

“What is THAT?”

“It’s the fish tank. The one that’s been sitting in the
basement for 4 years?” He answered her with false calmness.

“Don’t be facetious. You knew what I meant.”

He shrugged.

“Great something else to take up the damn room. Do I dare ask
how much you spent putting it back together?” she glared at him.
“Of course not, I can see it in your face. You have the gall to
bitch at me over how much I spend and you go and do this? Did it
even occur to you to ask what I
thought?”

“Well, I’ve been thinking about it for some time. The fish
calm me down after a long day. They’re peaceful. You know I like
it. ”

“Yeah, like last time? You ended up flushing the fish down the
toilet!”

“That isn’t what happened. And even if I did, what do you care?
They were mine anyway.”

She took a deep breath. “It is what happened and you know it.
You can lie to yourself, but don’t lie to me. You always get
things, let me get attached, then get rid of them when YOU’RE
tired of them!”

“Fucking cunt.” he muttered. She turned away attempting to
ignore it, knowing he was trying to piss her off. She clenched
and unclenched her fists in a desperate attempt to control her
anger then stepped backward into the bedroom.

“That’s right, just like always, go and fucking pout.”

“Well, better to pout than try to talk sense into that
Neanderthal rock you like to call your brain.” she undertoned.

“What was that?!”

“Nothing.” She sighed.

“Bullshit it was nothing. If you want to say something-say it.”

“Oh, you mean like muttering ‘fucking cunt’ under your breath?
Follow your own damn advice.”

“Well, you heard it, didn’t you?” He stepped closer putting his
face in hers.

“Just go away. Talk to me when you can act like an adult.” She
turned to shut the bedroom door on him.

“Don’t you fucking dismiss me in my own damn house!” he
apoplexed.

“I stated what I had to say. If you can’t deal with, shove off.
You bitch and bitch about every little nickel and dime I spend
on fucking necessities, then you go off and spend what? A
hundred dollars?” a ghost of guilt crossed his face at this,
“and yet you STILL manage to turn this around so it’s MY fault?”
She took a deep breath. “I’m not saying you couldn’t've had it.
I’m saying it would’ve been nice to have been consulted.”

“Fine! I won’t get the fucking fish! Is that what you want?” He
stormed over to the fishtank.

“Jesus Christ! Aren’t you listening to me?” she shook her head
knowing the answer. “I’m not pissed over the fish…I’m pissed
that you didn’t bother talking to me about it. I live here too
you know.”

“Fuck this.” With that he snatched his keys off the nearby
table and stomped out the door.

“Where are you going?”

“None of your damn business!” he said as the door slammed shut.

She really didn’t expect anything different. He’d come back
later with all the fish he wanted. Never apologize and act as if
nothing happened, no matter how much she glowered or begged him
to apologize. Never thought about her. Never listened.

So much for the peace the fish tank would bring. Who needed it?

It was perfectly peaceful without him.

Copyright Dryad 2003 (gbbjg@yahoo.com)

Eddies part2

Sunday, January 25th, 2009

skin.

“You know, I bet you could paddle out here naked, and no one
would ever know the difference.” His comment jerked her back
from the quiet solitude with a jolt.

“Probably,” she replied distractedly. After a few moments,
though, what he’d said jolted her to reality. Looking around and
seeing no one, she felt devilish.

“You know, you’re right. And it’s getting hot out here…” She
pulled her dress up over her head and threw it into the gunwale
behind her.

He heard the rustle, and turned back to see what she had done.
He chuckled, shaking his head before turning back forward to
continue paddling. The current wasn’t fast here, so she laid
her paddle down, leaning back into the back corner of the canoe,
enjoying the warm spring sunshine on her naked skin. She felt
the canoe bump as he pulled it into an eddy. She closed her
eyes in to the sun, but still felt his eyes on her between
casts. She opened her knees slightly, letting the warm sun tease
her lower lips. She heard his intake of breath and inwardly
smiled. Her fingers absently touched her sex, opening herself
up to the fragrant warmth surrounding her.

She may have dozed, she wasn’t certain. But the next thing she
heard was his putting the fishing pole back into the canoe, and
his pulling up the anchor. “Afternoon. Fish don’t want to bite.
Might as well head back.” She started to sit up, to help paddle
back. “Don’t bother,” he said, “the current will push us back,
and I’ll steer.” She smiled contentedly, seeing the look on his
face.

The neglected wife inside her jumped up and shouted, “I’m gonna
get me some! I’m gonna get me some!” Maybe not now, but
definitely after they put the kids to bed tonight. So she
shifted in the sun, moaning softly under her breath as her
fingers gently stroked her now wet inner lips. She gazed at him
through half lidded eyes, watching his reactions. She brought
one hand up to her breast, teasing the nipples until they stood
out, taut and pert, just waiting for attention.

He shifted in the seat, his hand readjusting himself. He
started to lean forward, but realized what she already knew…
only one of them could be in the front of the canoe. If he were
to join her, they’d tip. She smiled at his discomfiture. It
was then he realized she’d been watching him.

“Two can play that game, you little tease.” And with that, he
pulled his hard length out from his shorts. Staring at the
swollen purple head she’d admired so many times before, she
actually found herself salivating. Salivating and frustrated
because she could no more move to him than he could to her. She
whimpered, causing him to grin. Everything began to tease her.
The rhythm of the current pounding against the canoe, the warm
air currents teasing her skin, even the sounds of bees buzzing
through the wild roses and apple blossoms at the river’s edge.
Her fingers moved faster, trying to relieve the frustration she
was enduring.

Then once again, she heard the hull of the canoe bump and lift
from the water. Since she’d been more or less lying down, she
could not see ahead of them; only the green branches over her
husband’s head. She looked up quickly, and found that they were
on a sandy shoal at the edge of a large grassy flood plain.
Quickly he stumbled out, dragged the canoe solidly up on the
sand and pulled her from her seat. She rushed to keep up,
panting nearly as hard as he. As soon as they were on the
grass, she collapsed to her knees, reaching for his tumescent
prize. Lovingly she slurped down its length, his fingers
tangling through her hair while he moaned. After only a few
minutes, he pushed her away. Without words, she turned onto her
hands and knees and presented him with her wet opening.

Greedily, he thrust his own now wet member into her, causing
them both to moan loudly. He pumped into her, his pace
astonishing. The long grass beneath them brushed her skin,
rasping against her hardened, sensitive nipples, causing sparks
to fly before her eyes. Her body began to tremble announcing
her impending orgasm, since her panting had robbed her of her
voice. Her body stiffened as he pulled out with a groan,
spraying his cum over her rounded backside. Collapsing forward,
she rested her heated skin against the soft, cool grass. After
a few moments, when the orgasm passed, she wobbled down to the
river to rinse off.

“Wow.” She smiled at him. He nodded in agreement.

Catching her breath she added, “I can’t wait to go canoeing
again.”

Copyright 2003 Dryad (gbbjg@yahoo.com)

Eddies

Saturday, January 24th, 2009

[A Fisherman's Widow Tale]
(MF, Exh, WL)

As always, if you aren’t allowed to read erotic material where
you are, please leave now. If you can’t vote, go away. All
comments not only welcome but desired. Read and enjoy.
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“Let me go with you,” she wheedled. “I’ll paddle, and you can
troll.”

He sighed. “You know I prefer to fish alone.”

She knew. She knew how he would go out for hours, leaving her
with the children, whole weekends where she would see him for
minutes a day. Weekends where, during the winter, he’d be giving
that sort of undivided attention to her. It was six weeks into
fishing season, and she was starting to get itchy.

“Mom said she’d take the kids, so we could go,” she said.

He tried to dissuade her. “We’ll be paddling upriver.”

However, she loved to canoe, and didn’t have a problem with
that. With the enforced inactivity of the last few weeks, she
was looking forward to any sort of exercise.

“We’ll be fine. I’ll even pack some lunch.” She smiled.

“Whatever floats your boat, sweetheart.”

She grinned wider. It was as if he was giving her carte
blanche, and she knew how she wanted to use it. She was going
to go fishing too, but her quarry was a mite more skittish than
your average trout.

Together they packed the car with all the canoeing necessities,
loaded the kids up and dropped them off on the way.

It was a beautiful May day. The sun was bright and warm, the
sky that perfect robin’s egg blue. The open windows in the car
let in the occasional waft of fragrance from lilacs and apple
trees in bloom.

She heard the water gurgling in the distance as he pulled the
car into the small gravel lot.

They trudged with their equipment down the steep embankment to
the river. Wide, but not too wide, slow moving for spring, and
reflecting the perfect sky in its clear, dark depths.

The canoe slid smoothly into the calm water. He took the
paddle and pushed off like a punter against the ground,
thrusting them into the current. They took turns on the sides
of the canoe; she on the left, he on the right. And then by
some unseen agreement they would switch sides. The sound of the
water lulled them.

They paddled far upriver, passing only one boat, surrounded by
wilderness on either side; only the distant hum of the highway
in the far distance let them know they were not in the distant
past. They dropped anchor in small pools, allowing him to cast
into the eddies the trout seemed to prefer.

She watched him. He’d carefully choose his lure then cuss when
it snagged on an unseen underwater branch. She opened her book
and read quietly, the current gently bouncing the boat. She hid
her little smirk behind the book when the line snapped.
Patiently, he’d put on another lure and cast back into the eddy.
This time, he managed to pull out a nice brownie. After
releasing it, he pulled anchor. Without being told she stowed
her book and picked up her paddle, moving them even deeper into
the wild.

They followed this tack for a while. The sun warmed them,
until it was overhead, and they pulled out the sandwiches they’d
brought for lunch. She munched on the ham and cheese as he
continued to cast his lures and reel them back. The cicadas were
creating a hum in the distance, and the sun was warm upon her
…End of the part1. To be continued..

Deep Sea Fishing

Friday, January 23rd, 2009

{A Fisherman’s Widow Tale}
By Dryad

Sorry for the inactivity! I know its short…but at least it’s something. As always, it’s mine, don’t steal or borrow without permission. If you’re too young to vote, you’re too young to read this.
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Deep Sea Fishing
{A Fisherman’s Widow Tale}
By Dryad

Her hands clenched the metal railing. The up and down movement of the boat lulled her, while the rush of the salt misted air rushed over her ears in a dull roar. She closed her eyes as she stood at the prow, feeling the engine’s vibration come up through the rail and her feet.

The waves were gunmetal gray, matching the deep haze of the sky, making it hard to judge just where the horizon was. No land could be seen, and only the distant bugle of foghorns could be heard from the other boats nearby. She felt as though she was all alone; the rest of the people on the party boat were staying in the stern, where the ride was much smoother.

She smiled softly, her eyes still closed as she felt the warmth of a body slide up behind her. His arms didn’t touch her, but held the rail firmly on either side of her, effectively holding her in.

“We’ll be to the fishing grounds soon,” he whispered in her ear.

“I can see why you enjoy this. Even on a dreary day like today, its beautiful,” she answered back, turning her face toward him. “I’m glad I came.”

“You know, your skirt is soaked,” he chuckled, pointing the front of her sundress, which had gotten wet in the salty spray. He pressed up against her, and she felt his interest press against her ass.

“Tease,” she chuckled lovingly.

“Me? You’re the one who made sure I knew you weren’t wearing anything under that dress.”

“Well, I had to do something to get at least some of your interest today,” she giggled, her fingers sliding along the rail to clasp his hands.

“Well, we’re not there yet,” he answered darkly. She waited for him to finish the thought.

It wasn’t words that he continued with though. His hand slid up her long skirt, hiking it up over her damp thighs. A quick glance around showed that no one was near.

“You’re crazy, you know that, don’t you?”

He laughed. “You love me that way though.”

She sighed and fell back against his chest as his fingers found her already wet pussy.

The up and down of the boat now seemed to work to her benefit, forcing his fingers deeper every time the boat fell into the well of the wave. She swayed, unsure if it was the boat’s movement, or if it was his touch.
His fingers pinched her clit, causing her to moan, before leaving her. She whimpered in frustration, only to feel the warm, smooth length of him press against her moments later. She felt him thrust into her, a syncopated rhythm to the lunging of the boat, and she bit back the scream. Just what I’d need, she thought have the whole crew rushing down, thinking I was about to fall overboard or something.

He returned his hands back to the rail, pressing her up against it. He continued to thrust into her, his mouth teasing her ear, her neck.

She saw through half lidded eyes a large wave coming, and knew the next slap of the boat would be harsh. The knowledge of it made her shiver, and when it came her consciousness shattered into a thousand broken pieces. The smell of the salt water, the cold dampness, the vibration and hum of the boat…nothing and yet everything stuck in her mind.

A few more discrete thrusts had him releasing his own control, his hands clenching the rail, white with tension.

A few moments of after orgasm blur, and he dropped her skirt, zipping himself back up. She turned in his arms to give him a kiss, when she noticed behind and above him a set of eyes twinkling with mirth.

Damned if he didn’t forget the captain in the bridge above the deck.

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Dating Diary 1989 Part 1

Thursday, January 22nd, 2009

By Dryad

Dear friends and readers,
This is different from many of the stories you’ve seen me write. It is more or less true (names and places have been changed to protect …well, ME). I had my first real boyfriend when I was 14, and a sophomore in high school. I began my diary. Told it more than just my dating quandaries, but filled with all sorts of teenage angst and melodramatics. (and looking back, I could be incredibly melodramatic). The diary ended about a month before my wedding, so I guess you really could call this the Dating Diary.
Why post my pathetic diary? Easy. While I realize many of us write in fantasy, I’m tired of 14/16 year olds thinking like 30 year olds. Realism Folks! And what’s more real than an actual diary? In some respects the writing sucks. I have changed nothing but actual names. Thought about elaborating, but then, you’d get my near 30 year brain in places it doesn’t belong. This is what it is.
The basics, however, still apply. This is my work, (for better or worse) is copyrighted by me, and no posting without my prior permission. Celeste’s blow job principle is still in action guys. This may or may not include adult situations, so if you’re not allowed to watch a nc-17 movie, scram. All others enjoy (or not *shrug *).
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Dating Diary 1989 Part 1
By Dryad

Dear Diary, 1/2/89
Happy New Year! 12/30 I went to a party at Lianne’s house. I talked with Josh some and played pictionary. Then freeze tag (joke; it was freezing out!) with Amanda, Beth, Mike, Seth and me. I talked with Seth for a while. Then Mike dumped men’s cologne down my neck…and it burned my skin! I had fun anyway.

Linc hired someone new. Her name is Dianne Chandler. Mom use to know her. She’s really interested in Palms, Zodiac, and thinks like that-cool!. I really must go to bed now. I finished the first chapter in my book. I’m not going to do my report for Foreign Policy-I’m going to drop it if I can. If not, I’ll fail it. It’s not an important class anyway. G’night!

Dear Diary, 1/8/89
Today is Sunday. I went to work today and yesterday. Not much is going on. I’m trying out for the play tomorrow. (wish me luck!) I’m going to fail FP. Its all right though. I didn’t want to (well, I WANTED to, I just didn’t care) because I’m not handing in my report. [Dryad note: this class was mostly seniors; and the teacher in his infinite wisdom wanted a 15 page paper, when all the other semester long social science classes were asking for 3-5 page papers. Retreat was the better part of valour] So unless I drop out well, ..

I read the Scarlet Letter- I got a 10 out of 10 (I think) on my test. Tuesday’s a half-day, so I’m working. I haven’t done anymore on my story. If I make auditions-call-backs are on Wednesday. In French-the teacher told us there’s a trip to Quebec and we would stay with host families. I’m trying to talk my parents into it-hah! I’ll never see Quebec! It’s $350. Now Mom and dad say I might not be able to get my car-because they don’t want it added to their insurance. “I have to be 18 to have my own”. Says their insurance company. I’m tired. Night!

Dear Diary, 1/16/89
Well, I finally did convince my parents, but decided not to go. $350 is a lot of money. Anyway, I got called back Wed, but I didn’t make it. I’m surprised, because I was told I did a good job- by many people-oh well! I still have my period- what a pain.

I got a letter from Alicia today. It was neat. My life is dead-boring, that is, I need a vacation-mom laid into dad about not taking a vacation for 4 years! What a bummer. Gotta go!

Dear Diary, 1/20/89
Life is okay. I got a 70 on my English exam. Then, I got an 80 for the marking period. So I got a 78 for the semester. A big doozy though, I got a 17 out of 70 on my algebra test. Booo! I’m getting a 64 in that class.

Anyway, I now have $1052.46 in the bank. Yay! I’m proud of myself. I went shopping and bought a magenta cardigan sweater, a pink 10 button shirt, and 2 bathing suits. (and some earrings) One bathing suit is all black with a black and turquoise twisted belt. It comes up on the hip cut out on the back and has a crisscross shape in the front. So it is low cut. The other is higher cut on the hip, and straight on the top. The sides are cut out and the back is the same. It is green and gold. About an inch in the front and 3 in the back along the bottom seam is plain black. The earrings are gold and look like filigree. Lianne was surprised at the prices (the bathing suits I got on clearance for $5 each. And she paid $36 for one of hers!) I better go to bed now, I have to go to work to pay for all this in the morning!

Dear Diary, 1/29/89
It is Sunday. My exams were so-so. I got a 93 on my CPR exam.; an 82 on my chemistry. I don’t know what I got on my French, and I got a 57 on my Algebra. Boohoo. I skipped my foreign policy exam.

I nearly got sick in work yesterday, so my check will be tiny. (I only worked 2 3/4 hrs) I came home and slept. (and slept and slept). Got some new clothes on Monday, a pair of lime green gypsy pants and a peach print button shirt. I cleaned out my clothes (it’s about time) I got 2 large garbage bags of clothes to get rid of!

Lianne and I had a long talk on the phone; an hour. I did some cross stitch; a dove. It came out okay. Psychology is going to be interesting. I watched this new show called “dolphin cove”. It takes the place of “high mountain rangers”. But it’s still a decent show.

I am trying to become a better part of society. ( I would say better myself, but to a certain extent, I was happy with myself, just not with what everyone thought of me.) new clothes, new personality, (to an extent)

Josh is starting to bother me. He hurt me. They made up this word in English class; my name and “gross”. I wanted to calmly stand up, walk over to his seat, slap him in the face and coolly walk out. And if he brings that word up again, I will (leave that is). I don’t know if I could, but my dignity can only stand so much. Maybe instead I stand up and tell everyone who is laughing that if they can only get their laughs from other peoples expense, then they have no feelings and that it’s would be a wonder that they world is around if people like them ruled the world. THEN walk out. I’m tired of making up arguments with people who aren’t there. G’night.

Dear Diary, 1/31/89
Today I sent out my income tax paper. I am soooo sore from aerobics yesterday; OUCH! I had a French quiz, which I think I did okay on. I am starting to copy over my English notebook which is turning out as an enormous task. (I’m up to the 3rd part out of 8 and they are the easiest. Oh, well. I’ll get it caught up by the end of February. I hope. Oh, well, not much else, goodnight.

Dear Diary, 2/15/89
I’m so sorry I haven’t written in so long. I have sent Alicia a letter. I got an 80 in English, and 82 in Chemistry, and 88 (?) in CPR, a 70 in Gym (he gives 70’s to everyone.) a 74 in French, (raised my grade 12 points!) Algebra a 64, and I failed foreign policy, of course.

We have a student teacher in French. She’s really sweet. I have started to work on the party scene of the Competition! [Dryad note: our area held play competitions between schools; this particular year, we did "Desire Under the Elms" by Eugene o' Neil] Also, I have been assigned, (yippee!) to property mistress! (Double yippee!) for “12 Angry Women” which I hear isn’t going to well. (Oh, well)

Oh, yes! We have a new employee at Linc’s! Gorgeous 17-year-old Mark and he is THE most conceited arrogant, pompous ass you have ever met! He says a woman’s place is in the kitchen, barefoot and pregnant, a woman is the same thing as a slave and he said 15 year olds are babies. AUGH! Asked if he thought he was God’s gift to women…he answered. “No, I know I am.” Male chauvinist pig! Now he calls me “diapers” He said he’s going to give me a box of pampers wrapped in a ribbon. I told Cole and he said I should have answered him, “Why are you expecting to get me pregnant?” What a fantastic comeback!

I told Mark I don’t get mad, I get even. Now, his most precious thing (next to himself of course) is his car. He told me if I touch it he’d break my face; ah well, it’d be worth it. I could sue for any serious damage. So far here’s the list I have
· Disconnect the battery cables
· Write on his windshield with lipstick
· Let the air out of his tires
· Turn his lights on when he gets to work (it would kill the battery)
· Put sugar in his gas tank
· Lock his keys in his car
· Put rocks in his gas tank
· Put a potato in his exhaust
· Toilet paper it, then wet it down
· Rewire his starter [dryad note: yes, I can do that!]
· Take off the distributor cap
· Put peanut butter on the fan belts
· Put water in the gas tank
· Put shaving cream on his locks
· Make him “lose” his keys.

No permanent damage though, so that leaves out a few. Not bad. Gotta do homework now.
P.S. Chris worships Mark-Disgusting!

[Dryad note: Part 2 Should be more interesting!]

Copyright Dryad (gbbjg@yahoo.com) 2003

Dating Diary 1988 part 3

Wednesday, January 21st, 2009

By Dryad

Why post my pathetic diary? Easy. While I realize many of us
write in fantasy, I’m tired of 14/16 year olds thinking like 30
year olds. Realism Folks! And what’s more real than an actual
diary? In some respects the writing sucks. I have changed
nothing but actual names. Thought about elaborating, but then,
you’d get my near 30 year brain in places it doesn’t belong.
This is what it is.
The basics, however, still apply. This is my work, (for better
or worse) is copyrighted by me, and no posting without my prior
permission. Celeste’s blow job principle is still in action
guys. This may or may not include adult situations, so if you’re
not allowed to watch a nc-17 movie, scram. All other enjoy (or
not *shrug *).
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Dating Diary 1988 part 3
By Dryad

Dear Diary, 12/5/88
Mom called my doctor, and he wants me to go to a gynecologist.
My luck-there’s no female gynecologists!
Players is starting a Christmas game. Its called Secret Santa.
For the week of the 12-16th you give the person a present each
day-you receive one too, from a different person. After school
Friday, there’s a meeting. Each person who was in it guesses who
his/her secret santa is-if you’re wrong, you make an idiot of
yourself; but nothing happens if you are right.
So far only 3 people have signed up for it. I figure this out
to help narrow it down a little (yes, I joined into doing it!)

Dear Diary, 12/13/88
I’m sorry I’ve neglected you but, well, you know how it is.
Today has been a day of ups and downs. First, I know I failed my
English test (vocab and myth) and I got an 88 on my Grammar
test! Then in chemistry, the teacher only gave us the problem
part of the test, which was a snap. Then I got a warning in
Algebra. I didn’t even get my gift from secret santa (yesterday
I got a little thing of lip gloss-children’s lipgloss!) I’ll get
back to that later.
On the bus on the way home, Jason smacked me on the forehead
once and hide in the seat so I didn’t see him, then he’d do it
again. I always believed 3 strikes and your out, so I got up out
of my seat; He turned around and went to go in the back and I
grabbed a handful of hair and pulled back-hard. We got into a
scuffle which I got the better of. That was pretty cowardly-
hitting from the back then hitting a girl? Most ungentlemanly
like. That could be taken as a good or a bad. I now reinforced
that I’m not to be reckoned with and made Jason look like a
fool, so he’ll probably want revenge. Mom found out and said I
should have told the bus driver-I was in the second seat, and
the bus driver saw!
I told mom he started it, he did it more than once, and I got
sick of it, and I’d be damned if he was gonna hit me again! So
much for my fight, he doesn’t deserve the ink I’m writing with.
I am being mean to Sandra, my secret santa person. I created a
riddle to help her guess who I am. Monday I gave her a candy
cane wreath. Today I gave her a pin that said “of course God
made man first–As a rough draft!” She thinks women are superior
to men. I’ve gotta go now, its past my bedtime.

Dear Diary, 12/25/88
Its Christmas! I have gotten a color TV (!) a skirt from Sasha,
3 pairs of socks from Lianne, powder and a Sachet from Chan, I
got perfume, a mini piano, bubble bath from my secret Santa (who
turned out to be Lindsey) sheets and a unicorn blanket from Mr.
and Mrs. Castle, a book about winter gardening and a sachet
holder from Kim and Al. A shirt and a purse from Aunt Edith and
Uncle Maurice. Perfume and pantyhose from Grandma. The last 3
books to Anne of Green Gables from mom and dad. A scientific
calculator and a Reba tape from Katie; more socks, 3 essential
oils (strawberry, violet and rose) a Bellamy Bros. Tape (which I
already had) Peanuts, Macadamia nuts a whole set of different
colored pens. My TV is really great. It has push buttons and is
a 13″. This is just this morning, though we still have this
afternoon. Katie got a synthesizer for her big xmas present.
Actually, its pretty neat-it plays things like fireworks,
popcorn, iceblocks.

Dear Diary, 12/29/88
Its Thursday. The week is going by so fast-I am starting to
write a new book-between Rainbow Valley and Rilla of Ingleside.
I am trying something new; I write a chapter, correct it until I
feel it’s perfect, then go on to the next chapter. I got a raise
in work. I bought Reba’s new tape-sounds pretty good. Paid mom
back and put the money in the bank.-my next check I pay mom for
the tape put half in the bank, school clothes and “Further
Chronicles of Avonlea”. I got that stupid rash back (Yuck!)
I talked with Josh today at the music store. He introduced me
to his father. (saying about Aunt Laura, since his mom went to
school with her-which reminds me, I still have to send a thank
you letter…oh shoot!)
I now have $936 (or something to that extent) in the bank. Or
was it $948? I don’t know and I’m too lazy to look it up! “Rilla
of Ingleside” was soooooo extremely pathetic! Walter gets killed
in the First WW. Jem comes back with a limp, Carl (Meredith)
lost an eye. Rill at first was a spoiled brat, but then she
“adopts a war baby”. The mother had died and she became a much
better person for it. (let me tell you!) Diary, its too bad you
can’t read, this is like the best book I have ever read (and I
have read more books than anyone could imagine!) All my plants
are dying-yes, I’m a murderess-I never could keep a plant alive
in my room-except that stupid cactus which always comes back! I
really must go to bed now!

To be Continued
in
Dating Diaries, 1989

Copyright Dryad (gbbjg@yahoo.com) 2003

Dating Diary 1988 part 2 part2

Tuesday, January 20th, 2009

I forgot to mention before that Sasha stopped by. Well, I’m getting a 78 in Mr. Cloog’s class.
Players is so fun! Daniel had to give me a ride because Deirdre already had 5 people in her car. They went through Passionella (a spoof on Cinderella) and Adam and Eve. I have to get a lock for my locker, because Lizzie and Brenda thought they’d be smart and took all my stuff out and put it in another locker. I lost 10 minutes in study time, and got a 45 on a test I retook. (I got an 85 when I retook it this afternoon) I’m going to bed now, bye!

Dear Diary, 11/5/88
Today I went to work. Chris was 1/2 hour late. Linc had left early (about 8:30) because he had to go to the Home Product Show. During first break, I kept bothering him; he told me to cut the shit. I kept going though. Why was I doing that? I was thinking maybe It was something like I can’t have him love me, I would want him to hate me? (Thin line between love and hate?) I don’t know. I kept myself extremely busy at Players the whole time. I got paint all over myself. Daniel was there till 5 Valerie, Michele, Eric, Carson, Linda and Jill left before the rest of us.

Dear Diary, 11/6/88
Today we cut up the deer Dad got. I had told Sandra and Maggie was there. Maggie’s chin dropped to her chest. It was so funny! I now have 18 1/2 hours in on the players (you need 200 to get a letter) Daniel gave me a ride home. We all, (Tabitha was there too!) started hitting eachother-Daniel hit me in the eye because he couldn’t see where he was hitting. We had a partial run through of Adam and Eve- during the blackout Sandra and I moved their new home on stage and put it nearly in the right spot; in the dark. I was proud of myself…don’t know why really…we have to know that anyway. I think rehearsal is until 9:30 tomorrow. Players paid for my dinner (also the people who came early) This is great therapy- I don’t have time to get mopey. I guess I ought to go to bed. Night!

Dear Diary, 11/7/88

Worked on show all afternoon. Deirdre took me home, Mr. Lion wanted to get up to Passionella’s change scene- we only got up to the first part of Lady or the Tiger. I honestly don’t think we’ll be done in time. Its late. Sandra and I were dropped off by Mr. Lion at Mama’s . We ordered pizza and brought it back (we walked) I’ve gotta get to bed. Night!

Dear Diary, 11/8/88

It’s 11:18 at night. We had the total run through of the play. There is a ghost in the Auditorium. We named it Sarah. Katherine’s been really edgy, but then so has everybody. I hope (as probably everyone else does) that opening night will be a success. It seemed to go fairly smoothly.

Dear Diary, 11/9/88
Opening night was a success! We only had maybe 2 mishaps. Linda forgot a few lines to her song- but it still sounded beautiful and the wheel on Adam and Eve’s hut broke, so we had to put a new one in. Sarah showed herself. There was a glowing in the back room and the work lights went on mysteriously twice. We accounted for one where Amanda flicked the switch on and off. Nicki had a sore throat but she still sounded beautiful. One of the candles fell out of the candlestick and off the platform. Afterward, everyone was hugging everyone. Daniel hugged 4 of us at once! (this is one growing boy!)
I’m starting to mend but I had a setback when I saw that boy again. Dierdre gave me a ride home. Night!

Dear Diary, 11/10/88
The play went great! In Adam and Eve Adam’s first hut fell over. Daniel said, “It’s all your fault Eve!” and they improvised until they got it back up. Nick had gone to the mall. There was a parrot in the pet store. When people said, “hi” it said hi; when people said “John” it said “John”. Well, Nicki thought she’d be smart and say, “Nicki’s God”. And the parrot LAUGHED! The whole entire store laughed.

I’m working 8-4 tomorrow, so I’ve got to get to sleep.

Dear Diary, 11/11/88
Nothing much today. I went to work and we did geraniums, new guinea impatiens and fuscia oh, and vinca. It was Linc, Chris, Sasha, me and mom. Got home and went to eat at Dragon City. Its 7:00 now. I’m gonna get ready for bed.

Dear Diary, 11/12/88

I worked at the store today, 9-1. I got home, ate, sat and moped. I am feeling extremely sorry for myself. I miss Chris (as a boyfriend) The play went beautifully, near success. Daniel’s mom drove me home because everyone else went to Friendly’s. Last night I had the strangest dream. I had a dream that I was going out with Eric Brando and that we were rolling all over the ground, fucking like mad. If his lips are as good in real life…
My subconscious has a filthy mind.

Dear Diary, 11/13/88
I slept until 8, which is late for me. I putzed around, did 2 loads of wash (still have 2 left). Lianne and I are going to do the seminar for the Newspaper tomorrow. It ought to be fun. I am feeling worse and worse. When I was working on the play, I was kept busy enough. I always seem about to cry.
I have a dull ache in my chest where my heart used to be. But now, my heart has shattered causing my breath to be short and a constant lump in my throat.
I am in a constant state of melancholy though no one even sees it. I would honestly be a fantastic actress.

Dear Diary, 11/14/88
I went to the journalism workshop which was interesting and I got letters from my pen pals—on the same day. I am tired so that’s all I’ll say except that I’m getting a 62 in French.

Dear Diary, 11/16/88
Nothing much goin on. I am sending a poem to YM to see if I can get it published. Daniel lost his voice. We are hoping that he will get it back. (oh, well) I sent the letter to Australia the next day.

Dear Diary, 11/17/88
Nothing much. It was a ½ day so I went ot work. Got my report card. English-78, foreign policy-85, Algebra- 71, French- 62, CPR- 88, Gym- 88 Chemistry- 83. Test on Moby Dick tomorrow. UGH.

Dear Diary, 11/18/88
I am in the pits of mortal despair. (Dryad note: obviously stolen from “Anne of Green Gables”.) I hurt so badly, If only I could cry and let it all out, but instead I have this horrid ache inside. It is so hard to be on the verge of tears all the time and never being able to cry. Putting on a brave face so no one (and honestly no one does) knows how badly I’ve been hurt. Its something like putting a bandaid over a chopped off arm.
Why? I care for him surely, but do I (honestly now do I love him? My symptoms are pointing to that, but its too late for me to do anything now.
On to cheerier matters. The play went great. Daniel had his voice (praise the lord). Daniel is having the cast party tomorrow night. I had better get to bed now.

Dear Diary, 11/20/88
Being so early in the morning (1:30am) and so much to tell, I’ll finish in the morning. All I’ll say now is that I went to the cast party, the play was the best yet, and work was okay. Finish later.

I never finished last night. Mom got mad at me this morning for asking if she was going to the play. Chris cheered me up (not just the sight—verbal wise!) Mom and dad took me to school. Closing night was our best night. Daniel made a joke about Quayle as president in Adam and Eve. The party was fun. We watched a video tape of the show. Lizzie’s mom took me home. I didn’t do much today.

Dear Diary, 11/23/88
Sorry so late in writing. Nothing much is going on. We’ve been taking down set, sophomore class is selling cookies, I got an A+ on my French composition and a 91 on my oral report in English and an 80 on my chemistry test. In volleyball, I dove for the ball and got a floor burn. (feels nasty too) (Dryad note: still have the scar too!) Well tomorrow is thanksgiving. What am I thankful for? My family of course, friends? I put a question mark there because I have no real friends anymore. I used to be able to tell Lianne anything but now it’s hard. I have plenty of friends though between classes and Players. Well, I’ve got too many to count.
Mr. Cloog liked the changes I made in my poem. In a way, I hope YM doesn’t print it, because It’s so much better now. I’m still extremely sad all the time, but I’m getting better–I can forget about it for a second now and then. After my oral report, Josh started clapping and everyone followed. I think I’m healing because I’ve been thinking about Josh. We have so much in common. Just a thought of course, and like I said, no more unless someone says something to me. I refuse to ask a male out again. Forever! I hate (!) feeling this way. Ah well, C’est la vie! Not only that, Josh is cute (though tall).

Dear Diary, 11/24/88
Thanksgiving is over. Tomorrow I work 8-4. I’m still tired. Last night I asked mom to cut my hair. Its shoulder length now. Its nearly all even except for my bangs and a small part where my hair used to be feathered. It looks nice, but I want my long hair back! Mom cut about 5 inches off –OUCH! I have a headache for some reason, so I’m going.

Dear Diary, 11/25/88
Today I went to work. A while ago I said I had bothered Chris and said it might be “thin line between love and hate” I figured it out. I did the same thing today. I wanted to inflict pain onto him, he had inflicted onto me. And it hurt to realize this. We had a long talk about things after that. I think I have finally come to terms with it. He told me it was all psychological. I told him he wouldn’t say that if he felt like I felt. I hate that saying “its better to have loved and lost…” I’m going to feel worse if I write anymore on that so I’m going to bed.

Dear Diary, 11/26/88
Worked today. I was in a fairly good mood. Chris and Linc read my poem. Linc didn’t say anything and Chris said it was nice. My face is itchy again. We went to my aunt and uncles house right after work. The first Star Trek of the new season was great. Deana Troi had a baby that grew rapidly. Wesley’s mom left and he was supposed to but he is staying. (Thank god!) Anyway, I’m going to bed.

Dear Diary, 11/27/88
Have I really changed a whole lot? I figure as long as I’m not happy with myself, I’ll keep changing! I did my wash and a little homework. That’s really all.

Dear Diary, 11/28/88
I am feeling very poetic this evening. If my name were Elizabeth, my mood would certainly be that. Most of the day today I was a Liz; the majority of the time I’m a Beth though. I just wrote “If you keep a smile in your heart and a laugh on your lips you shall always be happy” On October 24th I asked, “how long does it take for a broken heart to heal?” I think I can answer that as being now. Approximately a month. I am ready to live again! Watch out world, here I come!
Would you believe-
I talked with Lianne today. This is a list of who she likes (in order of course):
1)Peter 2) Sean 3) someone I don’t know 4) Josh 5) Seth 6) Karl and 7)Jeff.
This is my list:
1)Chris (still) 2) Josh 3) Seth 4,5,6 (in no particular order—because I’m only mildly interested) Daniel, Eric and Chad,

Players is doing (the believe) 12 Angry People (actually men, but well, obviously) [Dryad note: perhaps your drama dept was unlike mine, but we were very male challenged…and female heavy] I am going to try out for it. That’s all for tonight, G’night!

Dear Diary, 11/29/88
Nothing much today. I have a French test, a vocab test, anything else (?) tomorrow. Joy, Joy.
I had a dream last night about Josh. We were lying side by side on the grass, and he asked “What would you say if I said we were the perfect couple?” very softly and (both of us being on our sides) leaned over and kissed me. I answered back, “ I’d die of happiness.” And we began kissing again. Then we were up in my room, and we were going downstairs. We were holding hands. Mom, Dad, Uncle Chris, and Grandma were in the kitchen. We had gone out the back door, and he put his arm around me. Then the scene changed and we were under a tree house and he said, “you’re plan came out well.” And a bunch of other things I can’t remember. We had a short argument and we kissed. Then Sean or Matthew (I can’t remember which) popped out a window and were like, “ooooh, look at you two kiss” type thing. It was a nice dream. Oh, Well! At least I can kiss (I mean, know how for sure.) That’s really all.

Dear Diary, 12/4/88
I forgot to mention on 11/23 that I got my hair cut. I was extremely depressed Saturday morning, but Chris cheered me up. He really is a great friend. He’s the one person I can talk to- not even how I talk with Lianne. I tell him nearly everything. My shopping is done except I made a mistake on Uncle Chris’s present (I got him a Christmas tape, and he doesn’t really care for the artist) So, I’ll return it and get another one.
I got dad a black leather wallet; mom a CD; Grandma a PenDelfin named Jingles; Ron some blank tapes; Sabrina a pair of silver heart earrings; Aunt Ellen and Uncle Leo a meat and cheese set; Sasha a sweater; and got the rest of my girlfriends earrings. Whew! I spent well over $100, which for me is an awful lot. I might get Chris a present and I might get Bea one too. U have 3 small jars of herbs which I’m thinking of giving her. I have to start my term paper for Foreign Policy- I haven’t even started, (oh, shit!) it’s due something like January 7th. I’m doing better in French class except for the asses, such as Melanie and Roberta. We had a sub in class on Friday, and she asked the class who hadn’t had a turn reading the dialogue. And Roberta says, “Marie hasn’t!” It wasn’t so much her words, but the venom just oozed from her lips like it poisoned her just to say my French name. Ah well! Life is full of undesirable people. The photo for the newspaper for the yearbook, for instance. Linda went up to Julie and told her Tasha and her were Co-Editors. I go to tell her, 1) she spelled my name wrong, and 2) that I’m assistant editor. Linda says, “oh, that isn’t necessary.” As if it isn’t enough she already took editor, but won’t even let me have that scrape of recognition? After writing all the wrong things of that day, no wonder I was depressed! Just thinking gets me feeling down again. I’ve cleaned my room. So that’s all.
P.S. I started my period—again! (Already, I should say)

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Dating Diary 1988 part 2

Monday, January 19th, 2009

By Dryad

Dear friends and readers,
This is different from many of the stories you’ve seen me write. It is more or less true (names and places have been changed to protect …well, ME). I had my first real boyfriend when I was 14, and a sophomore in high school. I began my diary. Told it more than just my dating quandaries, but filled with all sorts of teenage angst and melodramatics. (and looking back, I could be incredibly melodramatic). The diary ended about a month before my wedding, so I guess you really could call this the Dating Diary.
Why post my pathetic diary? Easy. While I realize many of us write in fantasy, I’m tired of 14/16 year olds thinking like 30 year olds. Realism Folks! And what’s more real than an actual diary? In some respects the writing sucks. I have changed nothing but actual names. Thought about elaborating, but then, you’d get my near 30 year brain in places it doesn’t belong. This is what it is.
The basics, however, still apply. This is my work, (for better or worse) is copyrighted by me, and no posting without my prior permission. Celeste’s blow job principle is still in action guys. This may or may not include adult situations, so if you’re not allowed to watch a nc-17 movie, scram. All other enjoy (or not *shrug *).
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Dating Diary 1988 part 2
By Dryad

Dear Diary, 10/24/88
I asked Chris today the usual question when I see him-“Est ce que tu amore moi?” He wouldn’t answer, so I kept pushing. Finally he said no, that he liked me but It wouldn’t work romantically. He was worried about me being depressed. Right, now I’m either in shock, or I didn’t care in the first place. For some reason, I knew he really didn’t care- now I truly believe in that line in the song I wrote:
“I’ve given up on love now/ it causes too much pain.” I wrote another line to another song- “my heart’s been broken so many times/ it’s falling apart”

Why can’t my heart just leave my body? That way I wouldn’t hurt. For some reason, I was really mad (before he told me) and he told me he better not tell me (naturally I assumed the worst) I got even madder. He told me I shouldn’t assume yet, I was right.

How does a broken heart feel? It seems to me to be a dull ache inside. We came home instead of going straight from work. I’m drowning and no one will save me! I can’t cry until I go to bed. I should get an academy award for what I am about to do. My family isn’t going to know. I am going to ask Chris as a favor to a friend to help me cover it up. I hope he does. I’ve gotta go now. I’ll write tonight. I know what this is- I had a dream, and now I’m waking up. Only thing is it was too real- so it still hurts. I wrote before that love is like a roller coaster. Yeah, but mine came to a stop after turning my world upside down {Dryad note: Egad, did I really write this drivel??}

Can you believe this? Here I am at Diamond mall writing this? I got so bad I couldn’t even shop! Finally I called Chris, from here!

I’m back home now. I called Chris. I told him there were 2 ways to go. Either we are just friends, or if there is a chance of romance, go as we have been. We both agreed our minds were too foggy (due to the late hour) to decide. (not to mention, he was downstairs) I told him I didn’t know what I wanted. I would like to go on the way we have, but not if there isn’t a change for me. It wouldn’t be fair to me to keep me dangling. I’m really zonked. Gotta go. Bye bye.

Dear Diary, 10/30/88
Chris never called me. Right now I don’t expect he’ll ever call.

Sasha came over today. She said something about keeping work and personal life separate. Linc noticed how I jumped (as he said, 5ft) when he came into the office during break. He asked Sasha how he should bring it up and Sasha told him she’d handle it. I told her be probably wouldn’t have to worry about it much longer. Therefore she is the only one besides Chris who knows about what happened. You are the only one, Diary, who knows everything though. So much for my love life! Who needs it? I’m going to become a hermit and live by myself. (idea- Crista says that Seth wants to be a hermit too.) I’m through with love- I’m not touching unless someone throws themselves at me. (besides Rod, heaven forbid) I’m going to be a writer; a best selling writer and everyone will die for me just to shake my hand! There, I fixed that! Chris said I had talent. I’ll make him wish he never said no! yeah, I’m hurt. I’m sick of the whole damned human race!

This is a song I wrote:
The memory of his kiss
Is still fresh in my mind
The las words he said
The feeling of his hand in mine
But now he’s gone
And I don’t know if I can go on.

Chorus: why did he leave?
Why did I say goodbye?
I loved him
But I let him go.
Now I’m the one that’s hurting
And he’s the one that’s gone away.

I put a padlock on my heart
He pried it open and crawled inside
I felt without knowing
I gave without caring
If my love was going to be returned.
(repeat chorus)
I ought to be used to this by now
My hearts been broken so many times
Its falling apart
Now I cry nearly every night
Especially when I see a picture of him.
(repeat chorus)
(repeat first verse)

I feel better now diary-writing songs usually has that effect on me. So does sleepyness, which is why I’m gonna stop here. Night!

Dear Diary, 10/31/88
Halloween! Tonight I was Odin, King of the Norse Gods. Mom and dad got mad, because I used so much powder in my hair. Chris still hasn’t called. I called him Wednesday since tomorrow is Katie and Dad’s birthday. 6 months (I think) and I finally got my period (unfortunately) I’ve got homework; bye.

Dear Diary, 11/1/88
It’s Katie and dad’s birthday. I got really bad in school today. I nearly cried in study and I when I saw that boy that looks like Chris. I hate myself for feeling so depressed but I can’t help it.
I really like Mr. Cloog. He’s a teacher I can relate to. I still have my period I Hate it. I’m going to bed now, night!

Dear Diary, 11/2/88
Chris still hasn’t called-I didn’t have time between trying to finish everything (Friday’s the last day of the marking period) Melissa asked me again about working on the stage crew. I told her who lived near me, and who to ask for a ride for me. She was supposed to call me, but she hasn’t.
My room’s cleaner-I did all my regular homework and part of my makeup work. I made apple and rose potpourri. It ought to be done by Christmas. (ripening time) I’ve gotta go to bed.
P.S. Katie said she read you!!

Dear Diary, 11/3/88
My room is clean, and Deirdre can give me a ride.
I called Chris today. He was in the shower so he called me back. He said to him, boyfriend and girlfriend meant love and if we went on as we were we would be so we ruled that out.
At least that ‘s cleared up. Now maybe my heart will mend. I really feel terrible (about this)
How long does it take to fall out of love? I’ll tell you when I find out.
Why can’t I just cry and get it all out? Everytime I hear “addicted” “I know how he feels” see the boy who looks like Chris or such instance as what Mr. Cloog said today makes me almost but never have.
Oh yeah, Mr. Cloog was talking about a word meaning Rejection; he says something on the idea of “your boyfriend tells you he doesn’t want to go out with you anymore.” I nearly screamed. I’m another Julliet on the stage of life, and my romeo doesn’t care. I have to start something else or I’ll just wither away into the woodwork and die. I’ve gotta go to bed now.

Dear diary, 11/4/88
…End of the part1. To be continued..

Dating Diary 1988 part3

Sunday, January 18th, 2009

eaten that much- talk about wallowing in self pity.
Later,
I feel better.(mentally, physically, I feel worse-my cold is
worse!) coughing like crazy. I was extremely lazy and didn’t do
a thing. (except read listen to music ans tuff my face) that’s
all I guess for today. Bye
Dear Diary, 10/23/88
I smell a fish! I called Chris and his father said he was out
shopping at the mall with a friend. Sick my foot! I wouldn’t’
have midned if he just said, “I don’t want to do anything this
weekend! Ihave wash to finish. Later.
Well, we were going to go to the Diamond mall but It was too
late when we left so we went to Westbend mall. I looked for
Chris, but I didn’t find him. He probably already left. I got
3 tapes and a record and got Katie’s present.
I called Chris. I told him about a magazine I saw that was just
about sports cars (or was it special cars?) he said he’d check
it out. He said he got a new tape and 2 new magazines. He went
to the mall with his sister’s boyfriend, sooo I didn’t tell him
I was mad, okay, slightly jealous? Oui, Madame! All right, I had
better get to bed. Bye!
Dear Diary, 10/24/88
I did fail all my tests! But I got a 5 instead of a zero on my
algebra and I got a 4 in English and got a 52 (a 52? A 52! You
idiot!) On my french test funny thing is Amy got a 54 and Mme.
Riese told HER she needed help after school!
Now isn’t that ironic! I’ll write later when I have more to say.
Chris isn’t home so I haven’t talked to him. Weather lately has
been Horrible! This weekend had better be nice. U’m hoping
Sunday we can go to the cliffs. Saturday after work we’re going
to the mall. (Diamond or Ridgefield, mom isn’t sure yet.)
I have some sort of rash on my face, cuz its itching like crazy.
Gotta go now, later!
Dear Diary, 10/25/88
Today was much better. I got a 83 on my chem. Test- I did even
better than Marie! Then I got a 20 out of 20 on my algebra test
and tied with Jared! Chris is at a friends house so if he calls
I’ll write more later.
Dear Diary, 10/26/88
I just finished talking to Chris. Can you believe he knows all
you know? I read him this. (Yes, I am crazy) the play was
fantastic (I never thought Shakespeare was sucha comedian)
[Midsummer Night’s Dream] I talked to Polly while waiting for
dad to pick me up. She liked the poem I wrote:
The romantic things you say and do
Endear you to my heart
And because I love you
I hope we’ll never part.
For my darling that I care
More than words can say
You and I are the perfect pair
And I hope we’ll stay that way.
In Hartford, we were an hour early so we could do what we
wanted. Chan and I went downtown to a mall, which is next to G
Fox and Sage Allen. That was fun. Chris told me he bought that
magazine. He said it was good. This really hurts. Yeah it
bothers me but it gets worse when I realize that it isn’t really
(I mean it is but he can’t help the way he feels) fault. Like
Phil Collins says “you can’t hurry love”. I told Chris he
ought to be privileged to read this (well, hear it) he said it
was mainly about him anyway. Hah! That’s the reason why! Most
people wouldn’t let other people know how they feel. That’s my
big problem. I show too much—then people step where they
please. Katelyn doesn’t bother me anymore. Its like she does’t
like me, but a familiar face is better than none.
The newspaper’s getting nowhere-fast. We better hurry! I asked
Chris if he wanted to do anything. He said his normal response,
“I don’t know” I asked him about going to the cliffs, he
replied, “Are you nuts?” I retorted “I thought I already told
you I was crazy.” I’m getting tired (too much in one day) bye
bye!
Dear Diary, 10/27/88
Its about 8:30. We had our Algebra test today. I read today that
High Mountain Rangers is supposed to be back in January.
Chris wasn’t home. In CPR today, Josh asked how he was, I said
he’s fine, then he asked have you had sex with him! I told him,
quote, “That my dear, is none of your business.” He said I was
two timing him (Chris) by calling him (josh) dear! Then he
hasked ifwe’ve hissed. Beth broke in then ad said Josh wanted me
and Josh said oh, yeah, I want your body, Michelle. I told him I
wouldn’t touch him with a ten foot pole.
Aunt Laura sent me some more Rose petals (dried this time) now I
have 2 ½ big jars or rose petals. I have to dry more apples too.
Somebody recently asked me what it ws like, being in love. I
told her it was like a roller coaster. One minute you’re up so
high because you know he loves you and you love him and it’s
such a good feeling (him love me? Well, not yet.) the next
minute you’re as far down as you can go because you miss him.
God is that True! I’ve got to go to bed. Swimming tomorrow (oh,
brother) bye!
Dear Diary, 10/28/88
We’re still not sure about this weekend. I hope I will be
ale to go to his house. I called him, but he was eating so he
called me back. When we had to get off I asked him if he missed
me—he said he couldn’t say. I asked him if his brother in law
was there, and he said yes. I asked him to say yes he missed me,
or no, he didn’t. He said yes. I got a 62 on my algebra test- I
passed my English test and I think I did okay on my French test.
Its past 10 and I have to be to work by 8 so I had better go.
But before I do…Linda and Lianne are now officially co-editors
of the newspaper—Damn! Here I was working my ass off for
nothing! Well, damn it, they can have the fucking position! Now
I have free time to work after school if I damn please. Yes! It
does bother me! They’ve known for over a god-damned month! They
didn’t’ want to hurt my feelings (oh, please!) if that were
true, they wouldn’t have done it in the first place! This was my
last change for the academy. They didn’t realize that I needed
something really good for my resume. I love Writing! Writing is
one of the most important things that I do! It is one of the few
that people respect me for. “Oh, you can still be Assistant
Editor.” Big whoppdy-shit! Yeah, I’m pissed. I’ve wanted this
for sooo long—well fine they can be that way, I’m sick of the
whole damn school. When will they see me, and not what they want
to think! I was this close to quitting the newspaper but I’ve
worked too long and hard on this. Every damn last one of them
can go to hell, including Lianne.
I feel much better. Linda’s like “don’t cry” damnit, I will if
I want to. Maybe it isn’t that important to her, but it was to
me. I’m not going to let them have the satisfaction of known
how hut I am. Damn and these are supposed to be friends? Gotta
go. Seeing Chris tomorrow.

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Dating Diary 1988 part2

Saturday, January 17th, 2009

wasn’t ready for a serious relationship. It hurt a little (liar,
it hurt a lot) but I wouldn’t let him know. I laughed it off and
said “did I look like I was ready for marriage?” oh, yes, back
to the field; we made it back through the woods when I asked him
why he turned me down. He told me he wanted to but he respected
me too much. (I definitely made it hard for him when I dared
him!)
When we got back I asked him if we could go to this
grandparents, but he said now.
This really hurt me too, but again, I didn’t say anything. So we
were up in his room looking over car magazines. I asked him what
homework he had. He checked and said he didn’t have any so I
stayed an extra hour. I ate dinner there. Before Christ warned
me they said grace which was good (that he told me I mean)
After dinner, we were up in his room, I was lying on his bed and
we were kissing for about ¾ of an hour. I sure hope he didn’t
catch my cold.
That was all except that he liked the bracelet I made him.
p.s. I won’t promise to write in this every day because I’m not
in the habit of making promises I can’t keep.
Dear Diary, 10/21/88
Boy did today suck! I forgot to read Tale of Two Cities so I
failed the quiz (I think) then I retook the french test—bomb!
Algebra test I know I got a 0 out of 30. To top that off, Mom
told me when I got home that Linc and Arlene know about Chris
and me! Chris’s going to have a shit fit. Then she told me that
Linc was going to get on my case for forgetting to turn the
mists back on! Today is my DAY! I’ll finish later after Chris
calls. But first I want to copy this poem I found on a postcard
in Sackett’s:
Only as high
As I reach can I grow
Only as far
As I seek can I go
Only as deep as I look can I see
Only as much
As I dream can I be- Karen Ravin

Later-
Damn! Today is rally my day. I think Chris caught my cold, but
either way he is sick, so I can’t talk to him. I hope he’ll be
okay cuz I know I hate being sick. Sunday is supposed to be
rainy so we probably can’t go to the cliffs even if he was okay.
If he goes to work tomorrow I’ll ask. The only bad thing is
that I can’t warn him that Linc knows. Life is a Bitch! If he
calls back I’ll write more, if not, well bye

Chris didn’t call, but I remembered something I wanted to write,
Mom told me something about Arlene. Arlene was married to John
it seems and they had gotten divorced. After a period of time,
john came back and Arlene took him. They’ve been living together
since (3 years) every year he leaves her though. Sounds like a
soap opera, huh? Well. Later.
Dear Diary, 10/22/88
Life sucks!
Chris didn’t come to work today. Lianne told me this poem that I
like
I may not always tell you
Exactly how I feel; but the love I have for you
Will always be real.
You mean so much to me-
More than you will know;
And I will always love you
Wherever you may go
So when your days are really rough
And you don’t know what to do
Remember these words I am saying now
I will always care for you.
I’m upset (right) I’m miserable and I’m depressed . Help! I miss
Chris, I’m sorry he’s sick, I’m bored (naw, me, bored? must have
me mixed up with someone else.) I’m miserable because I know
Chris doesn’t care for me the way I care for him, and I’m afraid
he’ll get tired of me and break up with me. I’m afraid I’ll fail
my classes, that I’ll fail at everything (including life)
It hurts me that mike doesn’t care as much as I do, I mean it
hurts a lot.
You know what diary? My life sucks.
I nearly lost my job today. Chris was sick, I’m not doing
anything this weekend. This morning I weighed myself…89 pounds!
I lost 5 lbs, gross! I weighed myself again around 4…92! I’ve
…End of the part2. To be continued..